God Gives and Takes

Chapter 1:

I hate the fact that I have to move. I hate that its closer to the hospital. I hate that I'm 17 years old ,in my senior year, and diagnosed with cancer. I didn't ask for this and I don't think I deserved this. My friends I had to leave behind, they were getting all weird around me anyway. My parents are definitely not the same, my dads trying to act like its all going to be OK and that there is always hope, but my mom is in this negative stage where everything to her is falling apart (which it pretty much is). She practically gave up on me now, she's just so negative its disgusting to me sometimes. If she was the one going through the cancer I would think she'd be a little different but doesn't matter anymore to me what she think. I just want to beat this cancer.

I get in the car with my dad, he's silent and I don't know how to start a conversation with him. Then he finally speaks,

"Ya know how your mother hates coming to the hospital, sweetie. She loves you no matter what happens to you,"

"No she just doesn't want to be bothered with a dying kid anymore. Might as well just have another kid,"

"Clara Ann! You are my world, you are your mothers world, don't you ever doubt that. That and you know better to not mention of having more kids, you know your mother can't have any. We were blessed to be given you,"

"Yes, I know, dad. I've heard this ever since the diagnose. But now that god gave me...it feels like he's taking me away,"

"Your not dying. Your going to make this,"

"Whatever, dad,"

Then the rest of the car ride was silenced. I even fell asleep, I was so tired from last night. Ikept waking up, gagging like I had to throw up. My mom actually came out to sit by me on the couch till I passed out. It was brutal for me and her, her having to see me like that, I was waiting for her to back out on me. This cancer isn't just a sickness thats going to kill me...its a curse.

We get to hospital, go over medical stuff. I just layed on the bed, waiting for this nightmare to be over. For the first time ever, I wanted to go to school, but in a way i didn't because I would be the new girl. So we wait in the waiting room, to see the results. Turns out cancer isn't getting any better...

this is my next story im working on. let me know what you think so far