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Just the Beginning

2010-02-23T05:27:00.000-08:00

There are the times we regret
and wishing certain people we could forget
When the good and bad met
Wars were fought
Hell was brought
Running now so that you don't get caught
Everything that everyone wants can't and won't be said
All the words of hate crossing through my head.
Tossing and turning in my bed
All night
Now I know you were right
Gotta keep holdin on tight
All this pain
Thought you could let it drain
with just a dash of cocaine
Now your going insane
Became addicted
Now your convicted
We're not going to keep on running away
Find a way
Begin a new day!

The Light

2010-02-09T07:22:00.000-08:00

I sat starring at an angel statue
an old man's voice interrupted.
"What ya lookin at, kid?"
"Aren't angels kind of like ghosts?"
He chuckled.
"Not even close. Ghosts are lost souls searching for the answer. While Angels....well, they are the saviors that lead us to the light. Follow that light, kid,"
Then he vanished.

Deeper (lyrics)

2010-01-13T08:09:00.000-08:00

What am I suppose to do.

Am I really falling for you?

I don’t know my right from wrong…

Anymore

Cause I’m drowning in my sorrows

And I can’t find the surface

When you’re pulling me under,

Oh when I’m falling…deeper.

Take a small step closer

Look deep into those eyes

You start to dig up the lies

What else did you hide?

I can’t hold all the pain inside!

Cause I’m drowning in my sorrows

And I can’t find the surface

When you’re pulling me under

When I’m falling, oh when I’m falling…

Deeper.

Just wrap your arms around me

Please just let this moment be

I can feel my heart beating fast

Can’t we just erase it all from the past

Everything is running through my mind

I think you’re the one I’m supposed to find

I want to believe this is real

I reach the surface

Catch my breath

You’re not holding me back anymore

I fell too deep

You weren’t there to catch me

God Gives and Takes

2009-11-11T07:13:00.000-08:00

Chapter 1:

I hate the fact that I have to move. I hate that its closer to the hospital. I hate that I'm 17 years old ,in my senior year, and diagnosed with cancer. I didn't ask for this and I don't think I deserved this. My friends I had to leave behind, they were getting all weird around me anyway. My parents are definitely not the same, my dads trying to act like its all going to be OK and that there is always hope, but my mom is in this negative stage where everything to her is falling apart (which it pretty much is). She practically gave up on me now, she's just so negative its disgusting to me sometimes. If she was the one going through the cancer I would think she'd be a little different but doesn't matter anymore to me what she think. I just want to beat this cancer.

I get in the car with my dad, he's silent and I don't know how to start a conversation with him. Then he finally speaks,

"Ya know how your mother hates coming to the hospital, sweetie. She loves you no matter what happens to you,"

"No she just doesn't want to be bothered with a dying kid anymore. Might as well just have another kid,"

"Clara Ann! You are my world, you are your mothers world, don't you ever doubt that. That and you know better to not mention of having more kids, you know your mother can't have any. We were blessed to be given you,"

"Yes, I know, dad. I've heard this ever since the diagnose. But now that god gave me...it feels like he's taking me away,"

"Your not dying. Your going to make this,"

"Whatever, dad,"

Then the rest of the car ride was silenced. I even fell asleep, I was so tired from last night. Ikept waking up, gagging like I had to throw up. My mom actually came out to sit by me on the couch till I passed out. It was brutal for me and her, her having to see me like that, I was waiting for her to back out on me. This cancer isn't just a sickness thats going to kill me...its a curse.

We get to hospital, go over medical stuff. I just layed on the bed, waiting for this nightmare to be over. For the first time ever, I wanted to go to school, but in a way i didn't because I would be the new girl. So we wait in the waiting room, to see the results. Turns out cancer isn't getting any better...

this is my next story im working on. let me know what you think so far

A Child's Story

2009-10-20T07:04:00.000-07:00

Look into a Child's eyes,

See what they go through.

Everyday and every night is like a nightmare they can't wake up from.

I come home with a bad grade and get a lecture.

He comes home and gets a punch in the face.

I cry over a relationship that ended.

He cries because his father came home drunk last night...again.

The sun shines bright everyday for Me.

For him, the sun hides in fear behind dark clouds.

My father calls me his pride and joy.

His father calls him a damned child and is blamed for everything.

A child can tell a story without words....

Kissing in the Rain

2009-09-23T17:14:00.000-07:00

Question, how do you find Love?
Answer, you don't, Love finds you....

Out of Love there are the laughs, smiles, and tears.
My opinion, you get more tears out of Love than the laughs or smiles.
When you know you actually have fallen in love, its obvious:Your scared, your knees shake when you know he's looking at you, and your so afraid your going to act like an idiot in front of him but he thinks its cute when you mess up anyway.

He's your first real actual boyfriend and he tells you he loves you, you feel like your heart just skipped a beat every time he says it because he means so much to you.

this is just the beginning of a story I want to try and write. Hope you like it so far :)

Vanish

2009-09-22T16:15:00.000-07:00

I am for the footprints that are left in the sand by the ocean.

Waves pull in and out,washing my troubles away.

My Footprints Vanish.

I am for the troubles that sail within the waters forever.

Lost at sea, they don't know which way to go.

The confusion I give myself only making things more complicated.

My Worlds Vanish

I am for the sunrise I wake to see early morning.

The sign of a new day, a new life,

Sail towards the horizon.

I vanish...